Ivory's Journal

RPG Ad

2009-06-10T21:22:12Z

I just saw an ad for an RPG taking place for "those who wish they had grown up in the midwest in the early nineties."

...Is like a 5-year-old running that game, or am I so old that the nineties has become a time of legend? I mean...I did grow up in the midwest in the nineties!

I double-checked the dates, thinking there was a typo and the poster meant the early nineteenth century or nineteen hundreds or something. No. They meant like 1990.

Book Meme

2009-06-07T22:09:28Z

* Grab the nearest book.
* Open it to page 56.
* Find the fifth sentence.
* Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
* Don’t dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.

I'm cheating. The nearest book to me is actually the phonebook, but I've decided that that would be boring. So, instead, I'm grabbing the second nearest, Crime and Punishment.

"A woman takes him by the hand and tries to lead him off, but he tears himself away and runs back to the horse."

Geekery

2009-05-15T22:01:56Z

Q: Narcissistic or histrionic? Discuss.

Rawr

2009-04-11T02:57:45Z

God, I hate role-playing with my boyfriend. It's like he *knows* what I want to play and decides to make his character the exact. same. fucking. thing.

So now I'm super pissy and not wanting to game, but John came all the way down and actually fucking showed up for once so I feel sort of obligated.

Goddamnit.

I feel like there was something else I was going to write about in my journal entry, but I don't remember what it was anymore because I'm just so incredibly pissed. This is my way of walking away for a minute in order to cool off and not kill Chad or tear up my character sheet.

I was hoping I'd have something to reply to, but everyone knows I'm supposed to be gaming so nobody is responding quickly to my posts. Damn it all. At least I like my online characters and no one else is freaking stealing my ideas.

Savannah Blip

2009-04-06T04:24:28Z

It's recently come to my attention that Savannah won't survive Oblivion. This makes me incredibly sad, as I adore the character and I've even won an award for people loving to hate her. The problem is I made her as part of a threesome -- she's a twin, and there was also an older brother. Both of the other players flaked, leaving poor Savannah all alone... She's anorexic, has one friend is an epic asshole, and generally will probably either commit suicide or starve herself to death. Things aren't looking good at this point, which has inspired me to write something up for her. If things go the way I think they're going to go, I'll have this done and just be able to copy and paste it over. If things turn out differently, well, hooray for creative outlets?

Savannah fell backwards against the hallway, as much from grief as from hurt. She had thought that CJ cared about her. She'd known it was mostly physical, but there had been something inside her which believed it could be something more. He had taken such good care of her after the accident, doing his best to reassure her and patch her up. And Savannah had thought that it counted for something.

But, then again, perhaps she had known all along. When she'd come to see him tonight, she had offered him her body to have in whatever way suited him. Had it been a real relationship, she would not have needed to start things in that way. She could have just knocked and asked to spend the night. Instead, she had known there was a possibility he would reject her, and so she had offered him sex as a sort of bargaining chip...

That bargaining chip had failed her, and now she had nowhere to go.

Loneliness crushed her from all sides. She had spent the afternoon crying, but this tore the sobs from her once more. They weren't loud; she cried quietly, body shaking with each sob and tears spilling down onto her top. As Savannah did with everything, she took this personally. Her sister and brother's disappearance had stirred up guilt -- it was her fault they were here, and she should have been with them. CJ's rejection stirred up her feelings of inadequacy and her low self-esteem, because it was at last clear that she wasn't good enough for him. She would leave him alone, then, if that was what he wanted. She only wished he would have said so before she had made such a fool of herself.

Tearfully, Savannah aimlessly began to wander. Her own room was haunted -- not literally, mind you. Savannah didn't believe in ghosts and goblins. It was as though she could feel Samantha there still, watching Savannah and accusing her of abandoning her. Jesse was there too, echoing all of those terrible thoughts she had said during their fight, their last interaction. That was why she had come to see CJ, thinking that, maybe, just for tonight, she could stay with him. If CJ didn't want her, who would? There was absolutely no one aboard that she knew half as well as CJ...

She was all alone.

Somehow, she found herself on deck. She had ghosted up here, unaware of her steps, as she had done so much of the day. Whether it was the concussion or her grief, Savannah's brain was scattered, and she couldn't seem to keep track of even herself. A soft, warm breeze blew, tickling her skin as it slid over her bare arms and legs. The stars above were beautiful and unfamiliar to Savannah. She was a city girl, and the only stars she knew were those in Hollywood.

What a waste of life she was. It should have been she who had vanished, not Samantha. Samantha had been brilliant and pretty in that shy, natural way of hers. She could have done anything with her life and been successful. Savannah was none of those things, she knew. She was as stupid as a cow, and, without make-up, she probably resembled one too. She was nothing without her sister, without others...

Now, there was no one.

Savannah closed her eyes and leaned out over the rails. It was a precarious position, balanced on her one, good leg with her arms tightly clasping the slick, metal bars as she tested how far she could lean without falling. She wondered what it would be like to hit the water so far below. It would hurt, she thought, like a belly-flop, but so much worse from such a distance. The fall would knock the air out of her lungs, making it impossible for her to breathe or cry out. If she was lucky, it would knock her unconscious, and she would never know that she was drowning. To feel the world slip away, how would that feel? Would it hurt to feel your lungs filled with water, and how frightening would it be to watch the sky overhead turn black as the light faded from your eyes?

Her hands loosened their hold on the railing. Everything would be so still. And she didn't deserve Heaven, but she wanted to believe she would make it there. She wanted to see Samantha again and apologize for leaving her, see Jesse again and apologize for that terrible fight... She didn't want to be alone.

For a long time, she remained that way, frozen, hanging out over the edge of the ship. Then, eventually, she pulled herself back so forcefully it sent her careening backwards onto the deck. She couldn't bring herself to do it, to throw herself into oblivion, which is what she deserved. She was so useless, such a coward, she couldn't even do that properly...

The morning sun rose, shining its warming rays down onto the sleeping girl. Mentally and physically exhausted, the night had made quick work of Savannah. She lay on her side, body curled into some semblance of a ball, with her chest rising and falling with steady breaths. As the sun's light fell across her face, her eyes opened warily.

A look around herself confirmed that she had survived the night. Such a pity.

Oops!~

2009-02-09T07:16:18Z

I've gone a little overboard. Again. Perhaps it's because d00m has been so slow, but for the past week I've been occupying myself with new RPGs. At this point, I'm a little afraid for myself.

OCs:
d00m: Moderator Responsibilities plus like a bazillion characters. Thanks, Purple! (Yahoo Groups)
Colony: The bane of my existence. This is the single most elite game I've ever joined. Two characters here. Fortunately, things are quiet. (Yahoo Groups)
ISS Tyranny: Ah, my fascination with the alternate universe of Star Trek. Only one character aboard the Tyranny...and he likes to torture people. (Yahoo Groups)
Oblivion: Your typical horror-aboard-the-cruise-ship routine. I'm playing a total slut. Oh, Savannah. (IJ: savannahjames)
Metamorphose: Added this one on a whim. I like to play big kitties, and I'm curious to see how it will turn out. (IJ: white_growl)
Daingerfield: This one is very Deadlands... The mods are being weirdly picky about the Mormon thing. Ah, well. Missa is playing my character's sister-wife, bless her. It's going to be a fantastic time! (LJ: wife_one)

Canons:
Harmony: Shawn Spencer (IJ: i_eat_pineapples) and Dax (IJ: host_eight). Unfortunately, Dax's husband just left the game. Sigh. This game has a really great premise... Characters are kidnapped and brainwashed into having Pleasantville lives. Very cool.
Urbiphage: This seems to have a very cool steampunky setting. I am *so* reading these books sometime soon. I get to play Bigby~ So awesome! (LJ: artic_wolfman)

Discounting d00m, in which I have far too many active characters to count, I have 9 characters in almost as many RPGs. I think I'm going to start running around like a chicken with my head cut off when these things all start up... Somebody stop me from looking into more?

Sulk

2009-02-04T23:11:14Z

So today sucked. All day. Here's why:

6:30 AM: One of our drivers called to tell us that the sub never showed up for work and that said driver had to begin the route in five minutes. Darlene called said driver and learned that he had forgotten, but that he'd be there in 10 minutes. In the meantime, she sent another driver to start the route.

6:55 AM: The City called and demanded to know where their bus was, because it was supposed to have been there at 6:45. I radioed the driver and he said he thought he had to be there at 7:00 but that he was almost there. I relayed the message to the City.

7:05 AM: The bus still isn't there to pick up the City! I try to hail the driver on the radio, but he refuses to respond.

7:10 AM: Another bus in the area says the charter bus arrived at its destination. Thank God.

7:20 AM: Calls start coming in to ask where route 12 (the late driver) is.

7:30 AM: The same woman has now called three times asking about route 12.

8:00 AM: I inform Karen (the motorcoach manager) that her driver was late to the City. She snaps at me and claims she told him about the time change. Okay. Whatever.

8:15 AM: Tom informs me I will be attending a meeting about some huge event in April we're doing the busing for.

8:20 AM: Elaine hands me a stack of prices to be entered into the computer and asks me to tell her when I've finished.

8:30 AM: Tom pulls Darlene and I into a pre-meeting meeting.

9:00 AM: The actual meeting begins.

9:50 AM: Darlene leaves to go to a funeral.

10:45 AM: The actual meeting ends. I returned to my desk to find a huge stack of notes.

10:50 AM: Karen tells me the motorcoach information is okay to print for the following day. I start to enter the school bus information and learn that there are two unconfirmed drivers. (Thanks, Darlene.) Of course, neither driver is picking up his phone.

11:00 AM: Lunch time!

11:10 AM: I finally clock out and spend my entire lunch hour working on entering Elaine's data into the computer.

12:00 PM: As I near completion, Elaine hands me a second stack of data to be entered, then goes to lunch.

1:30 PM: I inform Elaine that all data is entered. She should be okay to do whatever she needs done. Shortly afterwards, both drivers call to confirm that they will be able to do their school bus trips.

2:00 PM: I finally finish Elaine's stupid projects and then I begin entering post-trip data into the computer. This is typically the first thing I do every morning and should be done by like 9:00.

2:30 PM: Route time.

3:00 PM: I finish entering the post-trip data. Finally!

3:20 PM: Karen points to a charter bus (motorcoach) that never left and was due somewhere at 3:00 PM. She wants to know when I would have noticed. (Just a note: it was supposed to leave at 2:30. I would like to mention again that that is route time!)

3:28 PM: I clock out and hurry to drive to the mechanic to have my oil changed.

4:15 PM: I come home. Chad skipped school again today because he played World of Warcraft all freaking night. So I decide to sulk and get caught up on RPs.

4:45 PM: He decides to "lay down for a second" which means I can either sulk somewhere else or remain in the bedroom (where it's warm) but be very, very quiet.

5:10 PM: I really hate today. Really.

Projects that need to be completed at work (in order of importance):
Mileage Surveys: Reorganize Onalaska and figure out why DeSoto is so screwed up. Due: January 28)
Student List: Enter the remaining two grades into the computer. Due: February 2
(These two projects should take no time at all...if I could get to them.)
Routes for the big April Conference Due: February 7
Blue Cards for January Due: February 13

HAAAAAAATE.

Zoom zoom!

2009-01-29T22:43:42Z

1. Make an LJ-cut post with "DO NOT READ" as the text.
2. Do not select a 'mood' for this post.
3. If anyone clicks the cut, they are to comment and admit to doing so.
4. Anyone who reads this also has to do the same in THEIR journal, thus continuing the never-ending madness...

Yearly Meme

2009-01-05T05:13:03Z

I keep forgetting to check/post on LJ ever since I left Paixao. And, as usual, how-many-months-down-the-road, I'm kicking myself for leaving. Erg, I'm so washy! I was delighting in Glitch last night and reliving my dreams for Weyoun.

Anyway, here's the yearly meme -- maybe the last one, if I don't start posting regularly again...

Year in Review Meme

January: I have a glowing Christmas penguin in my room. I don't know why.

February: Yesterday, I was required to dress up for a tour of Watlow in Winona for my management class, including the ever-terrible heels.

March: It's been a very long time since I've posted a blip on my LJ.

April: I hate April Fools Day.

May: I R GROWED UP AND GRADUATED.

June: It slightly annoys me that I spent most of the night last night trying to find a save point in KHII rather than sleeping.

July: How dare they license their products so that I can't watch them on Crunchyroll!

August: Excuse the language.

September: I HATE CHILDREN.

October: I would so die.

November: I have been a very bad, offline monkey as of late.

December: Swiped from fireflypenance

So that's the year in review! Whoo.

Hrm!

2008-12-05T04:54:46Z

_{swiped from </a>fireflypenance</span>}

Put your MP3 player thingy on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the 21st is your title.

I Need Your Arms Around Me

Hey, man, please don't make a sound
I don't wanna talk
Well, I remember every little thing
I heard there was a secret chord

Drew looks at me
They're gonna clean up your looks
God made the mountains
This is what it's like when worlds collide

Don't lie to yourself
November of '63
Here you come knockin' on my door
I remember, I remember when I lost my mind

Is it worth it?
Head under water
I'm tearing away
One more time and you'll be dead

Thursday night, everything's fine
Last December I met a girl
Penetrate, penetrate all the simple minds
You've all seen a man at the liquor store begging for some change

Words are fun!

2008-11-17T08:11:57Z

"Meh" is now in the dictionary.

That is all.

ivory_thorns @ 2008-10-12T20:38:00

2008-10-13T01:41:21Z

Spud wearing his chicken costume that I bought him for Halloween. He doesn't look real happy -- but he left it on for about 20 minutes before taking it off!

ivory_thorns @ 2008-10-06T21:13:00

2008-10-07T02:16:18Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=reRTXJSyTjo

This is one of those movies I would refuse to see but secretly watch when it came to late night TV for free... I also have embedding issues.

In other news, this helpful guide to Palin's debate style from my dear, dear friend, mustbemissa !

It's about time I jumped on board, isn't it? I held off as long as I could.

Stress

2008-10-05T06:02:03Z

I've been stressed lately. Combined with being ill and getting no sleep, the end result has been a real bummed Ivory. Call me crazy, but I just had the oddest sensation... I've written it down to the best of my ability from a third-person format (also as a guy's POV -- don't know why) -- unfortunately, I waited an entire day to do so. Ah, well...

The joke struck him as funny, so he laughed. At first, the laughs were loud. Head thrown back and eyes squinted shut, he guffawed along with the rest. His was a loud, short laugh, sudden and strained. Typically, he laughed for no more than a few seconds – but, now, it went on.

The sound of his laughter dried up quickly, suppressed by the pressure of his chest and the heaving of the generous fat along his quivering sides. Straightening in his chair, the tears on his face surprised him. The salty substance had already drenched his face and had begun leaking into his mouth. He used both hands to wipe the moisture from his cheeks, then the dribble of snot from his nose. Still, he laughed.

It would dawn on him later that it wasn’t that funny. But, now, he laughed.

As he laughed, something bubbled up inside him. It was in his chest, and, as he laughed silently, it rose. It travelled through him and lodged in his throat. In his laughter, he sought to identify the pressure. He had felt it before, long ago, but no name came to him.

It was a strange sensation. The laughter continued, and the pressure in his throat swelled. Yet, for all this, he was clear-headed. It was as though someone had hijacked his body and left it on the laughter setting. The laughter made him feel impassive; he did not want to stop laughing, nor did he want to continue. Observing himself from such a distance, he simply and curiously floated.

Recognition came to him suddenly. That feeling in his throat threatened to spill out into his laughter. He knew it now – it was an urge to cry. It was not a few tears, no, but the desire to bawl as children do. Already, he knew his face was contorting in preparation, and he was alarmed at the remarkably easy transition from laughter to such tears.

For a moment, he considered just letting it come. Already, the sob was building and pushing, and he could feel it spill out of his mouth before he could stop it. How embarrassing, he thought, to cry here, in front of everyone.

The thought sobered him. He closed his throat and pressed his lips together tightly, reaching for a handkerchief to hide his face in. The laughter and sobs vanished, as though they had never blended into one. Gingerly, he dabbed at the salty moisture on his face then blew his nose once into the cloth.

A queer sensation, he thought as he put his handkerchief away. So this must be what it is to go mad.

Memes~

2008-09-25T22:11:43Z

Yoinked from fireflypenance

Rules of the game:

- Choose a singer/band/group
- Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group

My Artist: Bob Dylan (in honor of his upcoming tour stop in my town, eee!)

01. Are you male or female?
Girl from the North Country

02. Describe yourself.
I Forgot More Than You'll Ever Know

03. What do people feel when they're around you?
True Love Tends to Forget

04. How would you describe your previous relationship?
Is Your Love in Vain?

05. Describe your current relationship.
Do Right to me Baby

06. Where would you want to be now?
In the Garden

07. How do you feel about love?
Seein' the Real You at Last

08. What's your life like?
Clean Cut Kid

09. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Million Dollar Baby

10. Say something wise.
The Times They Are A-Changin'

11.) What do you want to do/be in the future?
Like a Rollin' Stone

12.) Describe your home life.
Tangled Up in Blue

13.) What would your last words be?
It's Alright, Ma

14.) Describe your car.
Slow Train

15.) Describe your style.
Ugliest Girl in the World
And from maiiau

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Write down whatever snarky returns come to your mind afterward.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
When Worlds Collide [Powerman 5000] (About right...)

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Merry Happy [Kate Nash] (Yeah...not so much...)

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Turn Me On Mr. Deadman [Union Underground] (EW.)

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Paradise by the Dashboard Light [Meatloaf] (Not...presently...)

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Gypsies, Tramps and Thieves [Cher] (...Well, it *would* be cool...)

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Fighter [Christina Aguilera] (Me...?)

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Extistenialism on Prom Night [Stray Light Run] (It kinda fits~)

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Stupid Girls [Pink] (Now I'm a sad monkey...)

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Fall Children [AFI] (I don't even know what that means!)

10. WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Demonoid Phenomenon [Rob Zombie] (Clearly, the sum of 2+2 is *unnatural*)

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Picture to Burn [Taylor Swift] (So ashamed...)

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
A Little Too Late [Toby Keith] (Boy, when this thing's right, it's really right...)

13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
I Will Buy You A New Life [Everclear] (Yup...)

14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Handlebars [Flobots] (So the theme of the song fits...but I don't want to grow up to be a set of handlebars...)

15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Love Song [Sara Bareilles] (Poifect.)

16. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Our Last Summer [Mamma Mia OST] (It's like...a death knell...)

17. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Down into Muddy Waters [Brother Phelps] (Only if it's raining!)

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
This Ain't a Scene, It's An Arms Race [Fall Out Boy] (...Oh?)

19. WHAT IS YOUR SECRET VICE?
Super Trouper [Mamma Mia OST] (Yes...my secret vice is ABBA...)

20. WHAT DOES THIS MEME MEAN TO YOU?
Hurt [Johnny Cash] (Especially those questions about what Mom and Dad think...)

Dirty little secrets...

2008-09-09T01:52:01Z

Went to school in a wet shirt this morning because we couldn't get the laundromat to dry out clothes yesterday. My brilliant plan of draping things over the balcony railing and letting them dry in the breeze was ruined when it poured -- all over my clothes and soaking my laundry basket. I am presently sitting in a room draped with drying laundry on clothes hangers. Such is the life.

The last couple of nights, I have been unable to finish drinking the cans of soda I opened expressly to take my meds before bed. So, rather than waste them and potentially knock them over in the middle of the night, I decided to dump them off the balcony. I heard the liquid hit something, so I moved over, thinking it was our grill. But, the sound continued, and I could not think of what the hell would be down there that I'd be dumping soda onto! ...Apparently, the neighbors downstairs have begun keeping a bicycle there. Oops?

The spiders have upped their invasion tactics, despite my best efforts at warding them away with rotting hedgeapples and gobs of poison spray. Presently, they are concentrating on invading the bathroom; only a very teensy one appeared in our bedroom, which I readily smashed to bits. A brown and a black spider had taken up residence in almost the exact same spot in our bathroom, while a strangely-colored one that reminds me of a crab is now living above the door. Chad has dispatched of the Twins and has yet to see the Crab. Why do I feel like I'm describing constellations?

Anyway, I believe the latest batch of Star Trek has finished downloading, so I will enjoy that. New Weyoun icons -- all done with a free version of PS. I think they turned out marvelous.

ivory_thorns @ 2008-09-07T12:43:00

2008-09-07T17:43:49Z

Why am I putting so much work into icons for a character I may never play?

...Because I'm addicted, that's why.

I'm so ashamed.

Shuffle Meme

2008-09-05T23:38:39Z

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write the song title as the answer...don't lie!

1)If someone says " I hate you", you say?
The Great Destroyer [Nine Inch Nails]

2)How would you describe yourself?
Walking in Memphis [Cher]

2)What do you like in a guy/girl?
Crazy [Gnarls Barkley]

3)How do you feel today?
Strong Enough [Cher]

4)Whats the first thing you see in a guy/girl ?
Face Down [Red Jump Suit Apparatus]

5)What is your life's purpose?
Far Away [Nickelback]

6)What is your motto?
Cell Block Tango [Chicago ST]

7)What do your friends think of you?
What It's Like [Everlast]

8)What do you think of your parents?
Autumn & Me [Saving Jane]

9)Whats the first thing you notice in a person?
Paradise by the Dashboard Light [Meatloaf]

10)What do you think about very often?
April Fools [Rufus Wainwright]

11)What song do you sing while showering?
Ballroom Blitz [Sweet]

12)What do you think of your pet?
I Kissed a Girl [Kate Perry]

13)What do you think of the person you like?
The Other Kind [Brother Phelps]

14)What is your life story?
Believe [Cher]

15)What do you want to be when you grow up?
Zero-Sum [Nine Inch Nails]

16)What do you think of when you see the person you like?
XXX's & OOO's [Trisha Yearwood]

17)What will you dance to at your wedding?
Excess [QotD ST]

18)What will they play at your funeral?
Rosenrot [Rammstein]

19)What is your hobby/interest?
How It's Going To Be [Third Eye Blind]

20)If you were a phrase what would it be?
Fall Children [AFI]

21)What is your biggest fear?
Won't Go Home Without You [Maroon 5]

22)When you find out you have 6 months to live what do you say?
Slept So Long [QotD ST]

23)What is your biggest secret?
Won't Get Fooled Again [The Who]

24)What do you think of your ex?
The Sweet Escape [Gwen Stefani]

25)What would people describe you as?
Penetrate [QotD ST]

26)What do you do on your spare time?
All That I've Got [The Used]

27)What do you sing while walking down the street?
My Back Pages [Various]

28)What is the worst thing ever?
Waking up in Vegas [Kate Perry]

29)If you could take back anything what would it be ?
Maneater [Nelly Furtado]

30)If you could say something to your ex, right now what would it be ?
God Given [Nine Inch Nails]

31)What will you post this as?
Our Last Summer [Mamma Mia ST]

And a bonus meme -- it's like two for one day!

List ten songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they’re not any good, but they must be songs you’re really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your blog along with your ten songs. ~~Then tag ten other people to see what they’re listening to.~~

1. "Kissed a Girl" by Kate Perry

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chapstick

2. "Picture to Burn" by Taylor Swift

So go and tell your friends
That I'm obsessive and crazy
That's fine -- I'll tell mine you're gay

3. "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis

You cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
I keep bleeding love

4. "Dragula" by Rob Zombie

Dig through the ditches
And burn through the witches
And slam in the back of my Dragula

5. "Cleaning This Gun" by Rodney Atkins

Y'all run along and have some fun
I'll see you when you get back
Bet I'll be up all night
Still cleaning this gun

6. "Comfort Eagle" by Cake

Some people drink Pepsi
Some people drink Coke
The wacky morning DJ says
Democracy's a joke

7. "Home" by Breaking Benjamin

I'm gonna get you
And your little dog too

8. "Gypsies, Tramps, and Thieves" by Cher

Papa would do whatever he could
Preach a little gospel
Sell a couple bottles of Doctor Good

9. "SOS" from Mamma Mia!

When you're gone,
How can I even try to go on?
When you're gone,
Though I try,
How can I carry on?

10. "Mamma Mia" from Mamma Mia!

Just one look
And I can hear a bell ring
One more look
And I forget everything
Mamma mia!
Here I go again!
My, my, how can I resist you?

11. "Handlebars" by Flobots

I can hand out a million vaccinations
Or let them all die in exasperation
Have them all cured by laceration
Or kill them all by assassination
I can make anybody go to prison
Just because I don't like them

12. "Viva La Vida" by Coldplay

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh, who would ever want to be king?

13. "I Ain't Ever Satisfied" by Brother Phelps

Last night I dreamed I made it to the promised land
I was standing at the gate and I had the key in my hand
St. Peter said, "Come in, boy, you're finally home!"
I said, "No, thanks, Pete, I'm just moving along."
Oh, I ain't ever satisfied

(Entering Shuffle Mode...)

14. "Capital G" by Nine Inch Nails

I used to stand for something
Now I'm on my hands and knees
Trading in my God for this one
He signs with his name with
A capital G

15. "When All is Said and Done" from Mamma Mia!

Standing calmly at the crossroads
No desire to run
There's no hurry anymore
When all is said and done

16. "Paralyzer" by Finger Eleven"

This club has got to be
The most pretentious thing
Since you and me

17. "Lookout Mountain" by Brother Phelps

And the chaplain said,
"Boys, we're up so high,
If you listen, you can hear
Gabriel's trumphet sounding."

18. "Happy" by Saving Jane

I'm so happy for you
I could cry
Yeah, I'm so elated
Cross my heart
And hope to die

19. "Hallelujah" by Rufus Wainwright

Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken
Hallelujah

20. "Into the Night" by Rob Thomas feat. Santana

Like a gift from the Heavens
It was easy to tell
It was love from above
That would save me from hell

21. "When You're Good to Mama" from Chicago ST

Got a little motto
Always sees me through
When you're good to Mama
Mama's good to you

22. "Don't Stop" by Saving Jane

This is when the hits keep coming
Just when I think I'm onto something
This is when the bottom bottoms out

23. "My Violent Heart" by Nine Inch Nails

There's bullet holes where my compassion used to be
And their is violence in my heart

24. "Rockstar" by Nickelback

We'll all stay skinny
Cause we just won't eat

25. "Never Again" by Kelly Clarkson

I hope when you're in bed with her
You think of me

26. "Wand'rin Star" from Paint Your Wagon

Mud can make you prisoner
And the plains can bake you dry
Snow can burn your eyes
But only people make you cry

27. "Girl Next Door" by Saving Jane

Maybe I'm just jealous
I can't help but hate her

28. "Better Than Me" by Hinder

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes

29. "Not Meant for Me" from Queen of the Damned

I'm trapped in this world
Lonely and fading

30. "Cupids Chokehold" by Gym Class Heroes

I love it when she calls my phone
She's even got her very own ringtone
If that ain't love,
Then I don't know what love is

31. "Beginning of the End" by Nine Inch Nails

We think we've climbed so high
On all the backs we've condemned
We've faced no consequence
This is the beginning of the end

Snagged from fireflypenance

Was in a somewhat good mood. This followed by a bad mood. Upswing to happy and pretending to be interested in Chad's new toy. But he went out to eat with Mike and didn't think to bring me any. It's war.

So, I keep adding to this entry -- because I don't want to clutter up your f-lists with my rambling nonsense. I'm tired and cranky, and I'm upset because I put a lot of work into character and journal generation, only to be pretty much told (implicitly) not to bother. Because no matter *how* many characters I play and no matter *how* often I hang out in the chat and do the other things people have suggested I do, I somehow always wind up on the losing end of everything. My characters are overlooked and uninvolved; every thread I get in either dies or is summarized somewhere. It's like the cosmic fucking joke that, no matter how hard I try and no matter how adorable or competent or damned cool my characters are, I will never be able to get involved. Or it could be that I'm doing something wrong -- but I can't see what. And it especially stings when complete newbs are immediately thrown into major plotlines... So, the point of all that, is I'm seriously considering throwing in the towel -- again -- and just forbidding myself from ever returning. Yes, every month or so, I do have a great time. But what's the point of apping another character and just sitting on him, bored to death? What's the point of being a part of something when all you have to say about it is complaints?

And what the hell is wrong with my ear that it keeps buzzing??

Some things just piss me off...

2008-08-24T05:29:03Z

So, I thought I had *finally* accomplished one of my goals in P -- only to be thwarted. And I'm not even sure *how* my plans were thwarted, except that they were. If I could dignify the thwarting with some sort of logic, I would feel a little better -- but, as it is, there is no justification for it... So now I'm all pissy and feeling left out and useless...

Anyway, nothing else new on the homefront. We're installing our hedgeapple balls tonight, so that will hopefully kill all spiders. I noticed this morning that there was a squished spider in the door frame of the bathroom door. This amused me greatly, while simultaneously freaking me out -- because even squished spiders are creepy.

Logging off and going to bed in hopes I will wake up happier when Chad calls.

Round Two

2008-08-16T23:34:43Z

They're back.

They're freaking back!

~~Two Three~~ Six in two days, all moderately-sized. Chad had to rescue me from two of them, because they were between me and the spider killer... Why do they hate me? ;_;

All windows and doors have been sprayed. WHERE ARE THEY COMING FROM?? *cries*

Cell Phones and Popcorn Kernels

2008-07-31T22:43:03Z

http://www.koreus.com/video/telephone-portable-mais-popcorn.html

This is very neat -- I sort of want to try it now! <3 MAZUR WAS RIGHT.

Yay! It's a Meme!

2008-07-08T01:47:28Z

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

maiiau chose the letter L!

1. Love is Free by Sheryl Crow
2. Lady Marmalade from the Moulin Rouge Soundtrack
3. Love Me Do by the Beatles
4. Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous by Good Charlotte
5. La Cucaracha

FUNimation is mean!

2008-07-02T19:41:35Z

How dare they license their products so that I can't watch them on Crunchyroll? How...terribly self-centered of them!

Anyway, small questions for you, F-List...

1. Have you heard of any of the following?
2. What have you heard/what do you think?
3. Would you recommend them?

The series in question are:
1. Hell Girl
2. Desert Punk

Thanks in advance! <3

Dear LJ: I hate you.

2008-06-17T06:17:54Z

I hate LiveJournal, and it's tendencies to completely wipe out entire journal entries. Naturally, it only logs entries that took about five minutes to type as drafts and never the immensely huge two-hour long memes or British conspiracy theories, complete with illustrations.

Damn you, LJ.

That is all.

Going to bed now. Out of spite.

Memes!

2008-06-10T04:41:17Z

Nabbed from fireflypenance
You are in a mall when the zombies attack. You have:
1. one weapon.
2. one song blasting on the speakers.
3. one famous person to fight alongside you. Person may be real or fictional.

1. Morning Star -- excellent for crushing
2. AFI -- Fall Children
3. Ash from Army of Darkness (duh!)

AND NOW A MUSIC MEME! Also from fireflypenancewho is my new best friend!!
Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the a line or two from the first 15 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
Step 6: World domination!

1. Mr. Billy Flynn and the Press Conference Rag... Notice how his mouth never moves -- almost.
2. The sirens are screaming and the fires are howling way down in the valley tonight. There's a man in the shadows with a gun in his eye and a blade shining oh so bright.
3. This is when the ink stops flowing. This is when my head starts going.
4. I'm gonna make you bend and break.
5. Wake up, Maggie, I think I've got something to say to you.
6. You and I only look the same, but we are very far apart. There's bullet holes where my compassion used to be, and there is violence in my heart.
7. ~~I close my eyes when I get too sad. I think thoughts that I know are bad.~~ Everclear - Wonderful
8. ~~We've all seen a man at a liquor store begging for your change. The hair on his face is dirty, dreadlocked, and full of mange.~~ Everlast - What It's Like
9. Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one to build me up and tear me down like an old abandoned house.
10. Finally, recover, and the moon is right, looking up into a neon sky. Child in me takes over...
11. I think it's time that I should just let you go, so I'll tell it to your face instead of tell it to you on the phone.
12. I hear a song makes me think of a girl I used to know.
13. It's been getting so hard, living with the things you do to me.
14. Head underwater, and you tell me to breathe easy for a while.
15. I think you can do much better than me after all the lies that I made you believe.

BONUS ROUND - no, I don't expect you all to look through 30 songs. But I like my music, thank you!

16. I didn't hear what you were saying. I live on raw emotion, baby.
17. If you ain't got no money, take your broke ass home.
18. ~~After all you put me through, you'd think I'd despise you. But in the end, I wanna thank you, 'cause you've made me that much stronger.~~ Christina Aguilera - Stronger
19. I am an arms dealer fitting you with weapons in the form of words.
20. Is there a word or right to say, even in this old-fashioned way? Go make your move, girl, I'm not coming home.
21. ~~I'm not talking about locking down forever, baby, that would be too demanding.~~ Toby Keith - I'm Just Talking About Tonight
22. Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy. One look puts the rhythm in my hand.
23. ~~I need your arms around me. I need to feel your touch.~~ Cake -- Never There
24. I pushed the button and elected him to office, and he pushed the office and dropped the bomb.
25. ~~I hurt myself today to see if I still feel.~~ Nine Inch Nails -- Hurt
26. There was a rapture, so I can never see you anymore.
27. Silent in my sanity, I live safe inside my cell. In the darkness that surrounds me, I see my own special hell.
28. I let you put it in my mouth. I let it get under my skin.
29. It was one of those great stories that you can't put down at night. The hero knew what he had to do, and he wasn't afraid to fight.
30. ~~When the sun came up, we were sleeping in, sunk inside our blankets, sprawled across the bed, and we were dreaming.~~ Stray Light Run -- Existenialism on Prom Night